It is a beautiful mix of coziness and trauma.
The cozy is a magical house in its own pocket universe outside of time that shelters queer teens who need it. It provides magical baked goods, the books you were wanting to read, the supplies for crafts you wanted to make, and most important, the found family of the others being sheltered who accept you for who you are. And no time passes, and you never need to sleep or use the bathroom, and you are safe. This is just what Cal (ex Calla) needs.
The senior prom that was supposed to be a gorgeous milestone spent with Ramona, the girl who is the love of their life, turns into a performance of shutting down the part of them that is realizing they are not, in fact, also girl. And if this is true, then the future that seems so clear to Ramona, of going to a woman's college together, is a nightmare. And Romana is very clear that she only likes girls (though she's not transphobic). But without Ramona, Cal has no one--her parents, through an unfortunate use of her ipad, found the things she's been searching for, and kicked her out, and Ramona's family took her in.
So Cal and Ramona end their prom night out at the edge of campus in an implosion of love and hurt and fear, and a storm breaks around them. They stumble through wood until the find a house in the middle of nowhere, and it lets them in, and the coziness wraps around them.
But just when the coziness of the queer utopia seems almost too much, the trauma each of the young people there carry is gradually revealed. They come from different times in the 20th century, and none of these were great times to be queer. Not one of them has a happy story to tell; all were truly desperate and in danger when the house appeared for them. Leaving is always an option, and it would return them to the moment they came to the house. Cal welcomes this chance outside of time to figure out who they want to be, Ramona too realizes important things about herself, and bonds are formed with the others.
But then the bubble of timelessness bursts. The safety of the house was double edged--there was no moving forward with life. And each of them has to choose if they will go back, and who they will be, and what they might become, or how they will die.
The author is kind, and wraps up everybody's story in a way that soothes the trauma side of the story without magically healing it. Because there is no magic healing; there was the gift of peaceful time, but life ends up having to be dealt with as best as possible. Each life story is powerful and moving (even Ramona's, which doesn't come close to the level of the others. I am still not quite sure why the house let her in, but it's a generous house, and it was a wise choice to do so).
Cal's journey to understanding of who he/them is nuanced, detailed, compassionate and important reading for readers who haven't made this sort of journey themselves. The history of being queer in the 20th century is heartbreaking. The details of it all make for good reading, especially for readers who don't need page-turning Excitements and Adventures. It is a book full of love, and I highly recommend it.


























